Sunday, April 01, 2007
" Dont ask, Dont tell "
Why, after so long, do i still feel like im the most misunderstood/fucked/hated/sadest person on this earth, i dont even feel like an emo, but like a loser.
Fuck this shit, i dont deserve any of this . what do i do wrong to not be able to taste the sweet fruits of success.
"God has a plan for all of us"
Whoever said that is probably retarded, and got sheltered from every single misfortune that befell from Hell.
Wiat till one leads my life, it may seem great ? I got a home, i got money, i got friends, i got girls that want me , i got people that wish they had my life, but let me tell you this, U must be fucking insane to want to be me.
I DONT EVEN FUCKING KNOW WHAT BUGS ME, MAKE S ME MOVE, WADS MY INSPIRATION WHO THE HELL GOD IS AND BEST OF ALL, WHAT MAKES ME BREATH EVEN THROUGH ALL OF THIS NONSENSICAL LIFE I LIVE.
Im still wondering why im alive, i odnt even know. Fuck this Fuck everybody, id rather go insane, lock me up in Woodbridge, im fucking crazy, fuck u fuck u,
U want to cry, yet i cant, no tears come out, because what makes me sad ? i dont even know. why am i so emotional yet cant be when i want to let it all out,
Try and fix me, bring me to fucking psyciatrits, doctors, discipline me, punish me, destroy me, just let me be like normal people, please, just 1 fucking day. .
i just want you to know who i am;
5:14 AM
