Saturday, June 21, 2008
" I Love It When You Call .
Nuff Said, This Song Says All .
Avenged Sevenfold LyricsDear God LyricsIm feeling, well really lucky, yet learning to change I guess.
Maybe you're right, I have to be more independant, when it involves company.
Does that include becoming a loner? Yet again like way before secondary school?
A Sad, Miserable, Abused Kid, Without love, showered with compliments in Track and Field, About my grades, My looks and physique .
Yet, like you said, that empty feeling, about whether I will ever be cherised and appreciated by anyone.
I guess, that feeling led to my downward spiral through life, in a way.
Now I stand up, look around, walk to the mirror, yet I wonder, " What am I today ? "
Sigh, there, ive said it.
Label me an emo, a queer, a fag, white man, whatever the holy fuck you want, but I am proud of what I have become, what I was moulded to be, this "thing" will one day be someone to help others, to be there for people, I choose not to believe in Karma, though it has been unkind to me, though I should so called, return the favours bestowed upon me, it will never be fair, to do all that again to hurt.
Man, this feels good, this feeling of self-realization, but really only thanks to you, I shall be something for you, to others, to myself, just that, yes, time gives me more time to think what I shall ever become.
To end off really. I'd Love To Carry On, Give me That Reason To Do So, Though You already Have, Take A Little Time For me, For Others.
Yours Lovingly,
Justin xoxo
i just want you to know who i am;
9:18 AM
